martes, 28 de enero de 2014

Is there coincidence or destiny in our life?

Do you believe in coincidences or in destiny? I believe in both... I believe that some things are meant to be only if you take the opportunity. I believe that only if you follow the signs, you'll find the person you're supposed to be. Perhaps you have several possibilities in your destiny. Each decision could be a determinant factor to change your life, thus your destiny. However, some things seem to exist for a reason. If you have read my first post of the year (or if you know me as a friend), you know I'm a "spiritual" person. That's why I believe on this force that some people call "God"; I'm talking about that invisible force, which is moving the pieces of the universe at this very moment. That's right! I believe on that crap, as so many people think it is... I would like to tell you my experience about why I believe on that "crap" anyway:

Things started to make a lot of more sense a few years ago. Now I know how well connected those things have been in my life. I suppose I can start talking about the moment I was in secondary school. When I was living in Caracas, Venezuela and even though the school had some "bad" influencers in my class, I was a very good student. Anyway, I kept studying, having good scores, being friend of the "good" boys and girls as well. During that period I loved listening Enya (irish singer) while I was studying for my exams; fairies and leprechauns were, for some reason, characters in which I believed and wrote about.

I finished my last year with honours. Although I was brilliant in biology, I decided to study something related to humanities: Social Communication and Advertising were my main options. Despite my desire of being a journalist, I could study advertising in a small institute of "new professions". I wasn't completely sure about it. However, it was my only option if I wanted to study something similar and cheaper than journalism. I don't regret it. It was the decision that I needed to make to find my destiny without knowing it. Meanwhile, I was working as an operator, selling hotel memberships in a little office near my house. I had to call a lot of people from a list everyday. It was stressful because you needed to sell if you wanted to gain extra sales commissions. At the same time I was happy because I was studying my first semester of advertising.

My father couldn't understand why I was studying that; he was worried thinking how could I get a job in my country having "that" profession (taking in consideration the difficult political situation). To be honest, I didn't know either, but I had hope and I was following my heart . I was paying my own studies thanks to my "operator" position. Suddenly I got an interview due to one of my sales calls. The man that answered that call didn't buy the membership that I was selling. However, he liked my way of selling and didn't believe that I was 18 years old. So he invited me to his office; he was the owner and director of an insurance brokers company. Moreover, they were creating a new marketing department and they were interested in my skills. "Fortunately" I got the job, even though I didn't had official experience about marketing. So I was starting my second semester and I already had a job position related to my studies (marketing assistant). That was amazing!

After almost two years working with them, I decided to quit and find a new path. I was finishing my degree and I needed to do an internship. I was tire of selling insurances... So I applied to several companies. Then, I found one free position in a digital agency. I started working there and I gained a lot of experience related to online marketing. I was discovering a whole new world; learning things about domains, hosting, Google ads, SEO, SEM, etc. Additionally, I found love among all that working and learning. He and I had the same dream of living abroad someday. We even applied to get the Canadian Visa (which we failed). He published his CV on a international job platform and he actually received an Irish job proposal that he couldn't get because he didn't have a work permit. Even though the possibility of living abroad was going far away, we kept dreaming about it.

One year and four months passed and I got a new job proposal from an international NGO. I was delighted with the possibility of working for their cause: Helping children. They accepted me in the new online fundraising department and I loved it since the beginning. Even though I had the skills they needed, I had to learn new things because this area was new in the Venezuelan market. People from Europe went to my home-country and gave me all the information I needed to start making online campaigns to raise funds for the cause. In a few weeks I was launching banners campaigns an doing email marketing. The outcomes were impressive. Everybody was keen of my work and I even started to train other colleagues.

I worked in that NGO for almost three years until my boyfriend and I decided to live together and founded our own digital agency. We wanted to keep helping NGOs and developing websites and blogs for other companies. We did it from home for around one year; we had our own studio for it (inside of the new apartment we had recently bought). Meanwhile my CV was becoming better for a 24 year-old girl. Then, we travelled to the USA (to explore Miami and Orlando); It was there when we realized more than ever that our home-country was in a very difficult situation and that we needed to go away as soon as possible. Finally, we started to make the arrangements to reach our goal (selling our new car was one of those sacrifices we made). The signs guided us to a country that I always had dreamt about; Ireland.

Everything that happened could've been a coincidence; or maybe I made my own destiny by myself. I'm not sure, but now that I'm looking backwards, I see an intelligence behind all those opportunities that I've taken. I believe that there's a plan behind our life. A plan that maybe we made before incarnating into this world... but that's just if you believe on that kind of crazy things.

Now, it's up to you. Look backwards and make your own conclusions.

martes, 21 de enero de 2014

Things that only you can decide!

There're things you don't know, things you've learned from others and you've accepted because you didn't have other choice. Negative and positive things. Things about your role in life, things about its roots, about its truly motives, about its effects on you.
We believe that we know everything or almost everything; we pretend not being afraid of the uncertain existence. We smile at people; we become embittered when we want to protect ourselves; we use masks in front of people, so we can look like we already know everything, because we are adults. We even convince ourselves of that. If it's not possible, we cover it going to parties, drinking, eating, smoking, etc. We distract ourselves to forget the dilemma of not knowing who are we and what are we doing in this world. We turn a blind eye about it and we keep up suffering. We keep up fearing; we keep up feigning.

Meanwhile, life doesn't seem to care. She continues, you can´t elusive its effects. Its paths are uncertain. She continues, even if we're still asleep. The school of life doesn't stop its activities. Even though we believe that we are not part of it; we are always learning, approving or repeating lessons. It's a perfect cosmic harmony from that we all learn according to our grade. 

What does our family tell us when we're children that we have to achieve in life? Well, it depends on each culture. Generally speaking, they encourage us to obtain money, have your own family and if you are lucky, you can work in something that you feel passion about (just to compensate the working hours). That last one is the ideal achievement. However, we know that few people make it happens. The good thing is that meanwhile, we learn a lot of things... Things that maybe we don´t realize that we're learning. We learn spiritual things through material things.

Each one learns something different through specific situations. It is not necessary to be awake. It´s not necessary that you know that you are here to evolve your soul. No, it is not! However, when you realize that, your life starts to chance and you realize the power that you have right now. Having this knowledge, you can face your problems with more cleverness, peace and less fear. Because from now on, you know what is your truly role in this world and you stop following other people; beginning an extraordinary travel to your inner-world. This travel is connected with the cosmic energy; because you realize that you are part of the cosmos; that you share its atoms; that you and the cosmos are one. Therefore, all the planet earth habitants, including you and me, are one. 

However, I know that is more difficult to accept it than understand it. Our ego is attached to our body. We tend to believe just what we see; only the things that were taught to us by others (not by our inner-self). We interpret things from spiritual masters through the church (whichever); or we don't believe anything at all. The fear tie us up; We keep going anyway... because life doesn´t stop. We have new objectives and goals. We stay asleep but it doesn't matter, because life keeps up teaching us while we are awake or not.

Each one choose to stay asleep or to wake up once for all... but remember something; wake up is not the goal nor a magical spell to be happy; it is the beginning of a new and challenging path...

To read the Spanish version click here

martes, 14 de enero de 2014

What about yoga classes? Are they fancy?

I discovered yoga a few years ago (when I was approximately 21-22 years old), not so long ago I suppose... Thanks to a co-worker, who became a good friend of mine, I started to participate in amateurs yoga classes; some of the classes were outdoors and others indoors. Personally, I prefer outdoor yoga classes. Probably in a park or a garden, surrounded by nature.

At the beginning I had some ideas about what yoga was. However, I had never imagined the power that yoga could have in my life, until I did my first class. It was in the campus of a university (UCV) in Caracas, and it was indoors.

The movements that I had to do during the class were quickly and strange at the same time. I had practised Olympic gymnastics when I was a child (9-13 years old); I was preparing myself to be an Olympic gymnast (which I couldn't achieve for some stupid reasons); but this was different. Yoga is not about flexibility by its own. You have to encounter yourself with a lot of things in your way while you're doing it; things that maybe you didn't know were there appear and try to distract you. Starting with your thoughts... Then, you may need to use the 4 pillars: Strength, Equilibrium, Flexibility and Concentration at the same time to successfully do the exercises that the teacher leads. However, it´s not just about reaching the most difficult position that yoga has. It´s about reaching yourself during the process.

After my first class, I felt relief and in good shape at the same time; perhaps a little challenged. There was a lot to improve and I found myself very motivated about it. Then I started to assist to yoga classes twice a week, in a park that was near my job location. I used to get out of my job at 5pm and the classes started at 5:30pm, so I had to hurry up those days to arrive early to the practice. So I did and my entire world started to change. And when I say "entire world" I'm referring to my entire inner world. I got in contact more than ever with my inner-self.

|You may understand why I was interested on that, if you have read the post "My 25 years of questions about life"|

Now that I have about 4 years practising yoga (not always in a group, but doing it by my own); I have noticed that being in a difficult yoga position (fighting with your own thoughts and trying to harmonically maintain your breath and the 4 pillars of yoga) is like being in a difficult moment of your life, fighting with people or situations, fighting with your own thoughts, without consciousness of it. However, when you're doing yoga, you realize that, and your practice become a way of mind-training through your body. So when you're doing yoga, you're preparing yourself to face your problems in a peaceful way, using your breath and the benefits learned from the practice of this ancestral activity, which many people start to do because is fancy and popular, but end changing their inner-self.

Yoga is not just one activity; it's a way of life. So remember, when you're passing through a difficult moment in your life, you can choose to put in practice your yoga learning, or let you down over and over without knowing why.

Summarizing: We have our entire life to practice the 4 pillars of yoga (in real life) without even doing yoga classes; perhaps you could use your own technique to peacefully face your problems; you could forget about it and avoid any related practice; or maybe you'd prefer learning in real life without trying this kind of things out.  In my case, I've chosen yoga as my personal training!

martes, 7 de enero de 2014

My First 25 Years of Questions About Life

I'm not sure how to start this... my story. I'm 25 years old at the moment. Recently, my boyfriend has written a kind of autobiography on his blog, so I was thinking that perhaps it is a good idea to do it as well. Also it is a way to practice my English in an informal way. Here we go then:

Western Peak. Warairarepano Mountain. Venezuela
I was born in Caracas, Venezuela the 12nd of April 1988 according to my registration papers. However, my real date of birth is the 13rd of April 1988. My parents are from Colombia but they decided to live in Venezuela thanks to my grandmother, who was working hard in this neighbouring country since many years ago. I don't remember my first years of life, obviously... but I know I really enjoyed to live there. I was 5 or 6 years old when suddenly my mother decided to go back to Colombia. She packed and went to the airport with my father, me and my older sister (Linda). I remembered she told me that she had a surprise for me and she'd give it to me when we arrive to Colombia. I was curious about it, but I needed to be patient. Then we finally arrived and she told me: -You're gonna have a younger sister-  I was surprised and said: -I haven't see you two kissing each other... How is this possible?- Everybody laughed about it and didn't explain anything; they just kissed me and keep walking to our new home in Bucaramanga, a beautiful city in the state of Santander, Colombia. It was well known as "The Parks City" because it was plenty of them.

Sabanalarga Puerto Colombia Church 
When I was 7 years old I started to learn about Catholicism. My Colombian family was very religious, so I started to go every Sunday to the Catholic Church. For some reason I found it quite interesting. I liked the feeling that I had when I was in silence, talking to "God" or trying to understand its messages through the bible. However, for a long time I was afraid of sleeping alone and darkness. I never missed a mass or a religious event. I even started to pray the rosary at home before going to sleep or at any time; trying to feel less fear. I used to think a lot about the meaning of life; which was weird for a girl of my age. All I wanted was to know the truth about myself; the truth about the existence and "God". My primary question was: Is life eternal? What happens after death? I asked this to my mom several times, and she tried to explain that there is a heaven where good people go when they die, and a hell for bad people who die. That was the Catholic explanation, but it didn't convince me at all... Something else has to exist. However, I didn't have any other theory to relay on. So I continued going to the church as much as I could. After a while I began to assist almost everyday... not just to the mass, but also to kneel in front of the shrine at the end of the ceremony, just to talk to "God". I knew "He" was listening to me but I wasn't sure of what "He" was answering (now I know that I was starting to meditate without even know it). I just felt its energy in a way that is difficult to explain. Each time that I came back from the church to my house, everybody affirmed that I was gonna be a Catholic nun. They were impressed and very excited about it. Also, I used to visit my grandmother on holidays and pray with her every night. I couldn't help thinking about the concept of life, over and over... Pray wasn't enough. I needed to find something else and I discovered it pretty soon. Meanwhile I was assisting to gymnastic classes during the afternoons, which I loved for some reason. Moreover I had the flexibility required for that (now I understand that I was close to the practice of spiritual Yoga).

When I was 13 years old my mother encouraged me with the idea to go back to Venezuela. She was gonna sell the apartment to start a new life in Caracas again. I had to go first, while she and my father were doing the paperwork and my sister was finishing her last year of secondary. I needed to start 2nd grade of secondary and because the educational calendar was different in Venezuela, I had to hurry up and begin the classes almost immediately. I was gonna live with my aunt and my three male cousins. I was excited and a little scare because I was gonna be far away from my parents and sisters for a few months. Finally I went through it, but the same doubts about life were still there. I began to write my feelings and my own answers; to read a lot about spiritual sciences and different kind of philosophies as well. Then, I realized that each one had similar concepts with different names.

The Helix Nebula
Years passed and when I was 18 years old, someone recommended me one of the books that have changed my life: Metaphysics 4 in 1 (by Conny Mendez). It has bases on Christianity but with a whole new vision of science and spirituality in one package. Its believes are also part of the New Age philosophy, wich is older than you may think. Nothing is a casualty... I read a lot about this, and finally started to find some answers, feeling less fear about the questions that I have had all my life. After that, I was in contact with myself, and my dreams at night became reveling. I felt more than ever the presence of God as an energy of the universe, and I was part o it. I felt angels and spirits that came to help me and guide me through my meditations. The ones that I've always done when I was a child, but now more conscious and deep. All these experiences made me realize what was happening in my childhood. Participating in yoga classes also helped me to realize a lot of things that I wanted to know as well.

Buddha Statue
Since then, I have had dreams reveling myself living in different times, living within other bodies, having unknown families... So, I believe in reincarnation. Not because somebody told me, but because I have experienced things that confirm my new believes. I had reached my 25 years, and even though I have discovered so many things; I'm still on a journey to my 50 years, which demands a lot of spiritual things to improve for now on. I'm living in Dublin now, and I'm sure that a new story begins here...